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Nightman's Late Entry~
3 min read
They say that self-pity journal entries are a good therapy technique yet... unfortunately... although a tad emotional due to the nature of this music playing in the background of my sleepy room, I have no desire to write on such a topic just yet. 
So the main question on my mind is: So what now?
Well first I have to get this profile all fixed up and running again. I have officially unwatched about 70% of the groups I use to follow. Why? Short answer: They failed to meet my expectations. When I have to browse through about 3.000 images in order to find at least 3 worth collecting then something's definitely wrong. As of now by using an extremely high criteria I managed to narrowed down the 10.000 deviations and 600 journal entries stored in my inbox to about 5.000 pictures. Hopefully I'll manage to clean it all up as soon as I have some more spare time.
Which bids the other part of the question: What am I to do with this account?
Obviously I don't spend as much time on dA as I use to. But I've invested too much time and effort into getting everything to look the way I want it, so there's no way in Hell I'm going to do something as drastic as closing it! I still like looking at beautiful artwork! There are many extremely talented artists whose masterpieces I can not help looking at without feeling all warm and happy about. Although it may sound a bit odd saying it like that, I consider keeping contact with such splendid people something crucial as long as I'm online. One never knows what might happen in the long run.
So no, I'm not sure if I'll be using this account for anything more than casual browsing, collecting of artwork that catches my attention and leaving a comment or two, yet I will definitely try to be as helpful to these people as I can. Not saying it'll always be possible, or appreciated for that matter, yet providing assistance can be anything, all from quickly Twitting about it to getting my hands dirty with some writing, design or something else if necessary.
Thus where does all this leave me at? Well, like I already mentioned, I can most definitely be found via Twitter (twitter.com/#!/AlexVSharp) spreading whatever news I deem worthy of a wider audience.Other than that, I will be writing articles (like I already did so far) on my Desura account (actually it's kind of deserted now. Just go to about.me/AlexVSharp instead). If I could I'd add a feed widget to share my stream - can't do that unfortunately. Only other thing I can think of is reposting news I do off-site here after they go live; not so sure how many people would actually like that, or even care for that matter. To each his own I suppose.
And I guess that about covers it.
Should have been sleeping about 5h ago, yet I felt like I needed to write this.
If for nothing else, at least my own soul will sleep better.
Good night and pleasant dreams.
Edit: Nah, I'm pretty much passive everywhere nowadays. Not that I'm not here, I just don't feel like posting online.
So the main question on my mind is: So what now?
Well first I have to get this profile all fixed up and running again. I have officially unwatched about 70% of the groups I use to follow. Why? Short answer: They failed to meet my expectations. When I have to browse through about 3.000 images in order to find at least 3 worth collecting then something's definitely wrong. As of now by using an extremely high criteria I managed to narrowed down the 10.000 deviations and 600 journal entries stored in my inbox to about 5.000 pictures. Hopefully I'll manage to clean it all up as soon as I have some more spare time.
Which bids the other part of the question: What am I to do with this account?
Obviously I don't spend as much time on dA as I use to. But I've invested too much time and effort into getting everything to look the way I want it, so there's no way in Hell I'm going to do something as drastic as closing it! I still like looking at beautiful artwork! There are many extremely talented artists whose masterpieces I can not help looking at without feeling all warm and happy about. Although it may sound a bit odd saying it like that, I consider keeping contact with such splendid people something crucial as long as I'm online. One never knows what might happen in the long run.
So no, I'm not sure if I'll be using this account for anything more than casual browsing, collecting of artwork that catches my attention and leaving a comment or two, yet I will definitely try to be as helpful to these people as I can. Not saying it'll always be possible, or appreciated for that matter, yet providing assistance can be anything, all from quickly Twitting about it to getting my hands dirty with some writing, design or something else if necessary.
Thus where does all this leave me at? Well, like I already mentioned, I can most definitely be found via Twitter (twitter.com/#!/AlexVSharp) spreading whatever news I deem worthy of a wider audience.
And I guess that about covers it.
Should have been sleeping about 5h ago, yet I felt like I needed to write this.
If for nothing else, at least my own soul will sleep better.
Good night and pleasant dreams.
Edit: Nah, I'm pretty much passive everywhere nowadays. Not that I'm not here, I just don't feel like posting online.
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Hidden from public eyes~
2 min read
For those who haven't noticed yet,
I spend more time adding and managing my collections then actually uploading new images.
However, lately I've discovered something that extremely saddened me: Just over a day ago I decided to scroll through my favourites gallery and view a certain piece from about two years ago. It struck me as odd that I couldn't find it, so I went to the artists account to see what's going on. Imagine my disappointment when I discovered that the artist had deleted his profile and every single picture on it! Only then have I realised another horrible truth: So many of the masterpieces from my collections have been put into storage, forever locked away from the eyes of the public...
Of course, I find this not only annoying, but also unacceptable. I didn't go through all that trouble of finding a piece just so it can be removed later on without me knowing. True, the artist does have the right to do so if he pleases, but why did he even bother showing it to us if he planned to pull it down afterwards? It just isn't fair to have us enjoy a piece enough to favourite it and then storage it away...
Well, although I urge all artists who did this to reconsider and let the world enjoy their creations, somehow I doubt many will listen. Thus I have decided to back-up my whole favourites collection on my hard drive. At least this way I won't lose them forever if something like this happens again. Will be willing to send them to people who miss them as well - for personal use only, of course.
If you too are worried about this sort of things, I advise you take a look at deviantART Favorites downloader from Dragoniade. It's a great Java application that let's you do just that.
Never again shall I not be able to look at good artwork!
I spend more time adding and managing my collections then actually uploading new images.
However, lately I've discovered something that extremely saddened me: Just over a day ago I decided to scroll through my favourites gallery and view a certain piece from about two years ago. It struck me as odd that I couldn't find it, so I went to the artists account to see what's going on. Imagine my disappointment when I discovered that the artist had deleted his profile and every single picture on it! Only then have I realised another horrible truth: So many of the masterpieces from my collections have been put into storage, forever locked away from the eyes of the public...
Of course, I find this not only annoying, but also unacceptable. I didn't go through all that trouble of finding a piece just so it can be removed later on without me knowing. True, the artist does have the right to do so if he pleases, but why did he even bother showing it to us if he planned to pull it down afterwards? It just isn't fair to have us enjoy a piece enough to favourite it and then storage it away...
Well, although I urge all artists who did this to reconsider and let the world enjoy their creations, somehow I doubt many will listen. Thus I have decided to back-up my whole favourites collection on my hard drive. At least this way I won't lose them forever if something like this happens again. Will be willing to send them to people who miss them as well - for personal use only, of course.
If you too are worried about this sort of things, I advise you take a look at deviantART Favorites downloader from Dragoniade. It's a great Java application that let's you do just that.
Never again shall I not be able to look at good artwork!
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Some of my off-site work
4 min read
Times change; no point in denying that. 
I only hope it will be for the better.
So I finally got around to update my journal. Miss me?
Of course you did!
Anyway, been trying to organize some of my work. This way I can keep track of what I am/was/will be doing and also inform others about it.
Support is such a wonderful thing, isn't it...?
Check these links if you find anything that might interest you. Got some good stuff out there! Shame most is unfinished, but hey - practice makes perfect! It shall be revived eventually. While on the subject, let me tell you about...
*Psst!*
...oh fine! Without further ado, the links:
www.youtube.com/watch?v=fBSgUf… Chaos Legion: Evanescence - Bring Me To Life (video)
► My first and only online AMV. Rather old now. There were a couple of rhythm mistakes which I couldn't fix because the program kept on crashing. Shamefully there weren't many comments online since by the time I uploaded it the ChaosLegion-Evanescence idea was old.
www.lf-empire.de/forum/showthr… LF2: "Mask of Darkness" (text)
► Here's an image and a complete scenario both done by me. This was suppose to be a fan animation project for the "LittleFighter 2" game. Unfortunately it's currently on hold cause of lack of participants. I'm very proud of the writing since it's my first "professionally" done script. Check the link for more information about it on the LF-Empire forum.
maksimstudio.wikidot.com/a-tai… "A Tail in Oak Leaf" (text)
► Hmm... You should check my older journal entry in order to better understand about this "anthro" novella. It is the longest text I've written in English and even though it is still unfinished I'm quite fond of it. Got a couple of very positive replies regarding this fantasy romance, especially considering it's in my second tongue.
www.lf-empire.de/forum/showthr… "Road to Ascension" (text)
► This is my latest writing. Much like the "Journal of the Last Legatee" which, even though a great story, is unfortunately drowning in orthography mistakes, this compilation was also based upon a browser game. It's a rather short Sci-Fi story. For now I'm keeping it on the LFE forum because the original host is down, and I'll have to remember to make a PDF back-up one of these days. Aren't in a mood to continue it any time soon, though I consider it my cleanest writing so far.
maksimstudio.wikidot.com/pp "The Golden Horizon" (grave)
► Definitely gravedigging; Can't even remember when I wrote this! Whatever... It's an unfinished fan fiction for the PuzzlePirates online game. Guess I just like keeping my old ideas about. A good thing about this is that it inspired the creation of another idea waiting to be compiled.
There's probably more, yet I just can't seem to remember where I put them at this moment.
Let's see...
There are also 3 projects I'm working on that aren't online:
> "The BGD Chronicles" series with Lione-Alex - don't know what'd I do without her! We are having some trouble, though. Hopefully it'll get better.
> "Reportaže Borisa Gudaka" with Laki-Bg - sadly, we're encountering more trouble then anticipated. I have written scripts for 2 episodes, but the drawing progress is less then mild.
> " Проклетство Ђавољег Реда" ("The Devil Order's Curse" or something) - a book I'm writing in my native language. Here's an illustration of a scene. It's paused currently while I tend to the other projects.
Guess that about covers it...
Least I think so...
Ahem... Anybody found anything appealing?
I could use some input. Share your thoughts, okay?
I only hope it will be for the better.
So I finally got around to update my journal. Miss me?
Of course you did!
Anyway, been trying to organize some of my work. This way I can keep track of what I am/was/will be doing and also inform others about it.
Support is such a wonderful thing, isn't it...?
Check these links if you find anything that might interest you. Got some good stuff out there! Shame most is unfinished, but hey - practice makes perfect! It shall be revived eventually. While on the subject, let me tell you about...
*Psst!*
...oh fine! Without further ado, the links:www.youtube.com/watch?v=fBSgUf… Chaos Legion: Evanescence - Bring Me To Life (video)
► My first and only online AMV. Rather old now. There were a couple of rhythm mistakes which I couldn't fix because the program kept on crashing. Shamefully there weren't many comments online since by the time I uploaded it the ChaosLegion-Evanescence idea was old.
www.lf-empire.de/forum/showthr… LF2: "Mask of Darkness" (text)
► Here's an image and a complete scenario both done by me. This was suppose to be a fan animation project for the "LittleFighter 2" game. Unfortunately it's currently on hold cause of lack of participants. I'm very proud of the writing since it's my first "professionally" done script. Check the link for more information about it on the LF-Empire forum.
maksimstudio.wikidot.com/a-tai… "A Tail in Oak Leaf" (text)
► Hmm... You should check my older journal entry in order to better understand about this "anthro" novella. It is the longest text I've written in English and even though it is still unfinished I'm quite fond of it. Got a couple of very positive replies regarding this fantasy romance, especially considering it's in my second tongue.
www.lf-empire.de/forum/showthr… "Road to Ascension" (text)
► This is my latest writing. Much like the "Journal of the Last Legatee" which, even though a great story, is unfortunately drowning in orthography mistakes, this compilation was also based upon a browser game. It's a rather short Sci-Fi story. For now I'm keeping it on the LFE forum because the original host is down, and I'll have to remember to make a PDF back-up one of these days. Aren't in a mood to continue it any time soon, though I consider it my cleanest writing so far.
maksimstudio.wikidot.com/pp "The Golden Horizon" (grave)
► Definitely gravedigging; Can't even remember when I wrote this! Whatever... It's an unfinished fan fiction for the PuzzlePirates online game. Guess I just like keeping my old ideas about. A good thing about this is that it inspired the creation of another idea waiting to be compiled.
There's probably more, yet I just can't seem to remember where I put them at this moment.
Let's see...
There are also 3 projects I'm working on that aren't online:
> "The BGD Chronicles" series with Lione-Alex - don't know what'd I do without her! We are having some trouble, though. Hopefully it'll get better.
> "Reportaže Borisa Gudaka" with Laki-Bg - sadly, we're encountering more trouble then anticipated. I have written scripts for 2 episodes, but the drawing progress is less then mild.
> " Проклетство Ђавољег Реда" ("The Devil Order's Curse" or something) - a book I'm writing in my native language. Here's an illustration of a scene. It's paused currently while I tend to the other projects.
Guess that about covers it...
Least I think so...Ahem... Anybody found anything appealing?
I could use some input. Share your thoughts, okay?
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Nice going. Way to fail, chum!
4 min read
You know what truly bugs me? When I think of a fantastic idea, start working on it, develop it to originality, and then give up... I sometimes truly envy people that are talented and stubborn about their creations. At least they always seem to finish at lest one of their projects. I on the other hand keep torturing myself, hoping against hope that one of my many thoughts will see the world and be beloved by many. It's sad really: I do have refreshing ideas, some even brought to a form of perfection, yet every time I start working on one it ends up as a bunch of files in my hard drive or paper on my shelves. And to make things even worse my brain just won't leave it to rest! It continues developing both old and new stories, creating an illusion that I can pull it off if only I had back-up. Yeah right - been there, done that. Those who know how to produce would rather work on their own ideas then try and make someone else's dreams come true. Without some kind of stimulation (in most studios that is pay) people easily decide to quit. And so with team member leaving one by one soon I end up working alone again and later on give up myself. Thus another chapter of failure is added to my already overfilled collection...
Maybe someday I'll find a public but for now its back to the state of utter defeat. In conclusion, the novel I was so fond of is stuck at 33 pages and while I know what's suppose to happen next I just can't seem to write it. Each word I write sounds wrong and a question keeps spinning in my head: "Why am I bothering? It's not like anyone will actually notice it - the wider public enjoy visual over textual all the time, from pictures to animated features. Man, I wish I could see it as a movie like I originally thought it as". I'm completely outdone by others, like a newbie fighting with a group of elites. All that's left for me now is to keep hitting my head against a wall trying to let go of those streaming ideas… I'm not having much luck with that either. Damn I hate my nil motivation – can't do anything with it!
In hope of getting the strength to finish it, I’m posting what I’ve written so far on my web site (which I also never seem to construct… ) and I’ll provide a link below. I strongly encourage everyone to visit and read it (I promise it’s NOT some amateur story). It is about some specific lives in the town of Oak Leaf (made the place up – or did I?), love and trust, and how they change to better or to worse. It does feature one anthropomorphic element, but it just merges into the rest so nicely that this both is and isn’t a “furry” fiction. In fact, it’ll appear much later in the story then one might expect. Also, I suggest listening to "Leona Lewis - Bleeding Love" before reading since it was one of the main inspirations for the tale and may help you imagine a more visual experiance (my form was a film).
I won’t beg anybody to read this, that’s just too low. However I will ask you to take some time and go through my work, leave a few comments (in this post or send a note please) and if possible have fun. Heck, I’d appreciate any type of support!
Just remember that it might take a bit while I answer since my internet is rather prone to disconnection. Who knows? Maybe some encouragements help me end the story?
Pleasant reading and hope to hear from you!
Tags: romance, crime, anthro, drama, philosophical, fiction with reality elements…
Maybe someday I'll find a public but for now its back to the state of utter defeat. In conclusion, the novel I was so fond of is stuck at 33 pages and while I know what's suppose to happen next I just can't seem to write it. Each word I write sounds wrong and a question keeps spinning in my head: "Why am I bothering? It's not like anyone will actually notice it - the wider public enjoy visual over textual all the time, from pictures to animated features. Man, I wish I could see it as a movie like I originally thought it as". I'm completely outdone by others, like a newbie fighting with a group of elites. All that's left for me now is to keep hitting my head against a wall trying to let go of those streaming ideas… I'm not having much luck with that either. Damn I hate my nil motivation – can't do anything with it!
In hope of getting the strength to finish it, I’m posting what I’ve written so far on my web site (which I also never seem to construct… ) and I’ll provide a link below. I strongly encourage everyone to visit and read it (I promise it’s NOT some amateur story). It is about some specific lives in the town of Oak Leaf (made the place up – or did I?), love and trust, and how they change to better or to worse. It does feature one anthropomorphic element, but it just merges into the rest so nicely that this both is and isn’t a “furry” fiction. In fact, it’ll appear much later in the story then one might expect. Also, I suggest listening to "Leona Lewis - Bleeding Love" before reading since it was one of the main inspirations for the tale and may help you imagine a more visual experiance (my form was a film).
I won’t beg anybody to read this, that’s just too low. However I will ask you to take some time and go through my work, leave a few comments (in this post or send a note please) and if possible have fun. Heck, I’d appreciate any type of support!
Just remember that it might take a bit while I answer since my internet is rather prone to disconnection. Who knows? Maybe some encouragements help me end the story?
Pleasant reading and hope to hear from you!
Tags: romance, crime, anthro, drama, philosophical, fiction with reality elements…
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Refreshed, back and ready
2 min read
So vacation time is over. Things have been both interesting and boring one after another, but I guess everything's coming together nicely. Bad news is that the movie I wanted to shoot is canceled due to inexperienced "actors" and terrain changes. The location where most of the action was to take place has been turned into a construction site for some new warehouse or something. Thus that part of the woods was cut down, cutting my film along with it.
On the bright side, my novel is more then halfway being finished. It already counts 30 large pages of font 12 text and I estimate it'll be about 20 more till completion. This is probably the longest tale I've written in English with a lot of words and phrases I rarely use in regular speech. Hope I will finish it before schoolwork begins piling up and submit it to my account for reviewing and other people's input. I'm proud how it turned up so far and I can honestly say that it's much more serious then any of my earlier texts.
I also done some drawing and coloring and while it's not the best quality I've decided to post it anyway. Moreover, I will put up some of my text on Serbian once I get my hands on them and retype them in Word. Good thing I've switched back to cable internet because mom's going to kill me once she sees the telephone bill from using a dial-up modem!
Last but not least, I'd like to thank all those people who downloaded from my gallery. Special thanks for those who favorite my work and watchers, and I strongly encourage more comments and criticism – especially criticism.
On the bright side, my novel is more then halfway being finished. It already counts 30 large pages of font 12 text and I estimate it'll be about 20 more till completion. This is probably the longest tale I've written in English with a lot of words and phrases I rarely use in regular speech. Hope I will finish it before schoolwork begins piling up and submit it to my account for reviewing and other people's input. I'm proud how it turned up so far and I can honestly say that it's much more serious then any of my earlier texts.
I also done some drawing and coloring and while it's not the best quality I've decided to post it anyway. Moreover, I will put up some of my text on Serbian once I get my hands on them and retype them in Word. Good thing I've switched back to cable internet because mom's going to kill me once she sees the telephone bill from using a dial-up modem!
Last but not least, I'd like to thank all those people who downloaded from my gallery. Special thanks for those who favorite my work and watchers, and I strongly encourage more comments and criticism – especially criticism.
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